“No thanks, I got this.”

Like a child learning to do things independently, I often push aside the ways of God in preference for my own. Though I may not say these words directly, my actions convey the thought in principle.

I want to do it all. I tend to want God’s help only when I want and in the way I want it. Every time I run head long into activities and convince myself I don’t have time to sit with God, I’m telling God I don’t need him. When trials hit and my first response is to feel despair and to fall apart while looking for someone to care, I’m telling God I don’t need him. On the days when I feel fine and dandy, and I forget God’s joy is with me, I’m telling God I don’t need him.

It’s not done intentionally; nevertheless, it’s all too easy to treat God as a commodity rather than the sustainer of all things. It’s easy to want the benefits of God’s abundance and miss the moments of gleaning.

For anyone like me, we want to do much for God but we forget how much he’s done for us. Our fretting hearts struggle to know, it’s OK. His love will never leave. His provision will never diminish.

Take a deep breath. Come, sit, and stay awhile. Enjoy the pleasure of His company and the gift of his grace. Surrender the need to do it all and find the beauty of a sacrifice that paid it all.

There’s more of our Creator to know and enjoy than most of us will ever experience. Will we come to his table and see the bounty laid before us?

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Years of over-serving drained me, but I kept going anyway. Women’s ministry, teen ministry, prayer team, bible studies, homeschooling, step-parenting, running a non-profit ministry, then fostering five to eight children at a time. All the activity became an outpouring of sacrifice mixed with a bit of savior hood. If I could just keep it up, keep saying yes, keep doing all the things I ought to do, I would be fine.

Eventually, I collapsed. I mustered the strength to keep running, but I lived parched and empty. None of what trickled in sustained me for the long haul of pouring out. I wanted to do my best to please him, and I longed for him to be pleased with me, but I didn’t know how to let my heart rest in his love. I snacked at his table every time I felt hungry, but it was never enough.

Doing for Jesus without relying on Jesus brings a whole lot of emptiness. A kind of famine for the soul.

Acting as if it’s all under control requires reliance on a limited supply of resources. When you don’t know you’re hungry, you don’t come to the table to eat. When you’re so busy with all the things which must be done, you miss the pleasure of sitting and lingering.

Can you envision coming to this place of feasting with Jesus? Do you see the heavenly realm depiction of filling us with more of Him? A kind of satisfaction settles in.

I want more. 

He invites us to sit with him. To let our rushed lives find moments of savoring. To celebrate the maker of all things as he hosts us at his table of plenty. He offers daily communion with the most high and holy King.

Do we treat his invitation as something that can wait? As if it’s unwelcome and unwanted? Perhaps our busyness says, “It’s OK, God. I got this.”

But without the nourishment he provides we starve. We don’t live life to the full because we’ve neglected the fullness of God.

As I lean into a new list of demands I’ve created for my own life, I’m cautious of my tendencies to go without God. I’m learning to listen to the hunger pains, even preparing for them before they arrive.

When God’s invitation is to wait and worship, even while serving and loving others, I find an ebb and flow which keeps my soul fed well.

His overflowing heart says to our running-empty living, “It’s going to be OK, dear child. I got this.”

Jolene Underwood / Posts / Blog
Jolene Underwood is a faith warrior acquainted with many of life’s challenges as well as God's healing work. She is passionate about cultivating a life well-lived, because she knows the power of God to revive weary souls. She believes a well-lived life is one that goes from surviving to thriving, no matter what the circumstances are. Join her conversations of encouragement & faith at joleneunderwood.com and on social media at @theJoleneU
  • Patricia
    http://www.patriciamwilloughby.com

    How very true. God desires a love relationship with us where He is all we truly need. Thank you for sharing your story.

    April 5th, 2017 11:17
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    • Jolene Underwood
      https://joleneunderwood.com

      So good to see you hear on Grace Table, Patricia. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. Blessings!

      April 6th, 2017 15:19
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  • Michele Morin
    http://michelemorin.wordpress.com

    So poignant, this reminder that our tendency is to “commodify” Jesus, while we busily take on all the duties of self-salvation. No wonder we run exhausted! Thanks for this shared wisdom!

    April 5th, 2017 14:31
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    • Jolene Underwood
      https://joleneunderwood.com

      How easy it is to make Jesus a commodity in our lives. May it not be. I need this reminder myself today. Blessings, Michele.

      April 6th, 2017 15:14
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  • Theresa Boedeker
    http://www.TheresaBoedeker.com

    God will fill us, it we just sit long enough and be still and listen. Thanks for the reminder. Much needed.

    April 5th, 2017 21:53
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    • Jolene Underwood
      https://joleneunderwood.com

      Thanks Theresa. I find myself needing to be reminded today too.

      April 6th, 2017 15:18
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