I turn off my alarm and close my heavy eyelids for one more indulgent minute. It’s still pitch black outside.

I can’t allow myself to drift back to sleep, so I countdown from ten then roll out of bed.
In the quiet of my living room, I meet with the Lord. I read His Word, confess my failures, share my thanks, and make my requests.

But when my time is up, I hesitate to start the day. In this calm place I know that I’m loved perfectly. I am forgiven. The Holy Spirit is with me. My heart and head are full of Truth, and the hope that God gives is so evident. I know before long, others will interrupt my quiet morning, and I will be thrust into wife, mommy, worker mode.

I reluctantly finish our time together with the quick plea: Help me love better than I did yesterday.

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It becomes a whispered prayer throughout my day because I’m a pro at loving God and loving others when my world is orderly and calm. But even a glimpse of chaos in the distance can be enough to blow me off track.

Help me love better.

I cling to the promise that the God of my quiet time is with me (Joshua 1:9) even as I enter the storms that can swell when other people enter the picture.

Help me love better.

It’s the greatest command: Love God and love others (Matthew 22:37-40). But lately the more I strive to love like Jesus, the less I look like Jesus. I know living a life marked by love is a series of small, daily choices. And I know it’s how others will know we are daughters of the King (John 13:35). Yet it’s impossible for me to get it right on my own.

And I so want to get it right.

Help me love better.

I go back to His Word and look again. I’ve forgotten the order of things. The greatest command is to love God. When I lump the second greatest command in with the first and try to love others in my own power, I flat out fail.

“When I have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now.” ~ C.S. Lewis

But when I consider the love of the Father, the sacrifice of His Son, and the mercy and grace He lavishes upon me, I remember the order of things. I am deeply loved, forgiven, and free so I can love others generously. So are you. So can you.

It’s confirmed in our quiet, unhurried moments with the Lord. And it’s lived out as we step into the fallen world and all its chaos with our eyes firmly on Jesus.

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Sarah is a wife and mom who lives imperfectly for Jesus. She’s a communication professional by day, word girl by night, and always an appreciator of art. She's on a mission to know and love God so she can love others like He commands. She calls it scattering gold. Sign up for monthly newsletters at www.scatteringgold.com.
  • SimplyDarlene

    “Help me love better” – four small words that remind us it’s both a process and an assisted journey. Thanks so much for this piece today.

    February 10th, 2016 10:59
    • Sarah

      I love this: “it’s both a process and an assisted journey.” Thanks for reading and responding!

      February 11th, 2016 9:15
  • Leah Adams

    Help me love better….it is my daily plea. Help me love my husband better. Help me love my kids better. Help me love the drug addicts that come into the pharmacy for another prescription to sell on the streets.

    Most days I fail miserably, but God offers fresh manna for each day. More love than I deserve. Help me love better, Jesus.

    February 10th, 2016 16:22
  • Jasmine G

    These words…. oh it resonates so deeply within me, too. Thank you for voicing this Sarah and the beautiful reminder that by His grace, I can extend His grace to others as much as He does to me.

    February 10th, 2016 22:06
    • Sarah

      Thank you for your comment, Jasmine! Yes, it is by His grace alone!

      February 11th, 2016 9:14
  • Myra

    Are you serious? I needed this nourishment today. I so want to get this right, too. The sooner my expectations are shattered of myself and others the faster I call fall into the order of things He has prepared. Right? … I think so.

    Oh, to be like You
    Give all I have just to know You
    Jesus, there’s no one beside You
    Forever the hope in my heart – Scandal of Grace

    February 11th, 2016 14:25
  • Sue Donaldson

    Thank you sarah – always looking to love better. At almost 64 you’d think I’d have it down, but no. I don’t. Not even Valentine’s brought the best out of me…did eventually, (whew) by (again) God’s drawing grace. Bless you.

    February 16th, 2016 0:01

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